My wife's health has been good since her last hospitalisation in 2011. Today we hit
a bump in the road. She was admitted for the fourth time for a bacterial
infection. They basically throw heavy antibiotics at her and hope for the best.
They don't know the cause of these infections. We try to be grateful in all things
and are certainly grateful for Gods guiding hand today. We could see it in the way we were whisked through the initial process to the testing being done quickly, etc. At this point the
infection appears under control and my wife's vitals are approaching
normal. For example her heart rate was 138 this morning and 90 tonight. If all goes well she may be released tomorrow.
Its hard sometimes not to let bitterness enter in, to not be angry
and to continue trusting God. On one hand we have received deliverance so many times, on the other hand these experiences leave deep scars on many different levels. Health stuff has brought a lot of uncertainty to
our home and forced our kids to face things I didn't face till much later in life. It
feels like Satan's attack is relentless. I can feel him at work in my life in my emotions, anxiety issues
and anger. Sometimes it feels like he just won't relent and I feel so powerless.
Even as I thought of Gods goodness today, Satan was right there voicing his opinion. He has used these events in every way imaginable to try and pry me/us away
from a God I/we love, to come between us, to render us useless. We would value your continued prayers for strength, peace,
the freedom to be real, to mourn and to hurt, for joy and increased faith.
In the end God will prevail. he doesn't want to bring us harm. Our world is fallen because we chose a damn apple over enjoying Gods provision, pretty silly eh!! One day we will get a second chance at perfection.
In the meantime may God somehow use each of us to further his kingdom.
Lord please continue your
work in our broken lives, amen.
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