stage fright

Stage fright, I remember as a boy whenever a school play happened, it seemed we all had to participate, but I always got the silent act parts. Been wondering how we as humans would respond if we knew what the whole play of our life looked like. I can only imagine the stage fright. Perhaps it's good to start with silent parts in a play. I think God knows what he's doing when he puts us through many tests before we get to exams. He knows what he's doing when he gives us a small part in the play before he gives us big parts. He works so patiently amidst our human weakness, tweaking us and guiding us along life's way.

Rain clouds

When I look ahead all I see is rain clouds, then I remember where my help does come from, from the author and finisher, the Alpha and Omega. The same God that provided a way of salvation, that parted seas and has performed many miracles, is on my side. The God, who I can speak directly to, the one who provided the Holy Spirit, my comforter, that God is on my side. When I am weak he is strong, when I feel deflated by cancer diagnosis and waiting and stress, he is there. Praise be to God in the midst of my circumstances. Thanks be to God that he does not take my moaning and groaning as an insult, but instead is there without outstretched hand. After a tiring year of cancer treatment and recovery, it looks like more is ahead. It is when I can come to him in my humanity, in my weakness, that he wants to increase my faith. I must decrease and he must increase. When my heart is heavy for those close to me, I am thankful for a bottomless well that God provides.

Lord help me not to go around that well but to walk right up to it. Your child, Scott